Round 2: Why don’t you just die already? Just Give up and Die. No no you will die! Ben: A lot of people wont like this music but some people like me have this one obsession. Admit it: you like not thinking about the truth. I understand that. In all honesty, neither do I. I bet my sister will like it. She’s always telling me to say something that means something for once. But then again maybe even she doesn’t really want to hear the truth about me. Some of our old music didn’t mean quite as much as this. We like to cover our hearts up in nonsense and heatless words that we don’t even understand. Call it a cop out or don’t think about it. Please take it all back, cause I never thought that it would be this way: that I could hurt the ones I love with all the worthless things I say… But we’re back for round two anyway. Jonny: Hey! We’ve been waiting on your game to change. We came to say it: “time bomb merits.” Quickly now, the minute’s finished. On to the next thing, On to the best thing, we’re gonna get it all. Always up. Never resting Never testing the ground that were walking on for cracks in the pavement, land mines and time bombs, ball drops and fall outs or cop outs.

Perro=Muerto:: Ben: There was a look in your eyes, a look of acceptance like you were destined to die, not destined for greatness. There was blood in your eyes and flies on your back. Maybe you’d finally given up. I think we both knew that. But still I held on. I didn’t want to give up. You were alone but not afraid. You were only a pup. Things aren’t supposed to end this way, its kinda f***** up. You lay down in a ditch and never came up. Eat just eat. Why won’t you eat? Breathe just breathe. Stop looking at me. It’s out of my hands so the locals told me. I’m coming back with water homie, just wait for me. Maybe I was too late cause it all went wrong. Maybe you just didn’t care: you need to die alone. I’ll remember you forever mans best friend. Natures wish, hang on maybe death is a gift. Jonny: Ask yourself: Am I taking in breath? Am I rolling over? I’m at the end of the left side of your chest. Your left eye is now glancing over, and the left side of my head is touching the ground now. Its almost over. Ben: Don’t compromise for my heart. Save all of me. Either let me go or hold on to me. Something inside my body wont quit, wont give up on you. I’m gonna fight till the end, till I find the one true love: the love that you offered, the saving grace, the death of a martyr. And when you see my face for the first time will you pick up my baggage and toss it into the fire? Will you tell me that you’ve been here the whole time fighting against me to save me from my demise? Three dimensional thinking, thinking about the afterlife. I’m not blinking. Talking… but I stopped lissssteningggggggg. Cause I’ve been waiting forever: hearing my bones crack. I’ve been hoping forever: longing for the inevitable. I told you I’d never let you look back. Forever’s a long time. We both knew that… Cause it’s all pointless. I told you twice I’m not gonna do it. Leave me alone. I already blew it. I gave up on that. I gave up on you. I gave up on us. There’s nothing more you can do. I told you that. Listen, I told you that. I told you that. I already told you that. I told you things I don’t want to take back. I told you that things would be different. I was wrong about that. You were wrong about that. We were wrong about that. I gave up on that. Give up on me. I’ll give up on you. Let me go! Let me go! Let me go!

An Attempt: Jonny: She braided my hair and tied up my dog. I was too confused to say no so I just brushed my teeth and went to bed. I punch the roof in my car. You punch the wall in your basement full of rage from the tattoo money cause we never quite had enough. She told me to teach her a lesson so I taught her everything I know like how to live in the cold and make my mom cry and let my friends down. Cause all we ever do is make pretty sounds that say too much about the thoughts (thots) we’ve been feeling. Church money for sun flower seeds. Keep me awake. Don’t look back for me. I won’t be there. Don’t search those tracks for me. I won’t be there. Solo run, glowing in the dark. These thoughts(thots) are not my enemies. These thoughts (thots) are not my friends. Go back home. She fell into the pool and I pulled her out with a net. She thought I was her friend. You were a traitor to mother nature. I was a dust-faced fool. We climb a mountain and sit down just to look over the edge. We live in the dirt but that doesn’t mean we can’t look out in to space. We try to feel loved but that doesn’t mean the stars don’t put me to sleep. I feel like I know who I am and I’m safe when I’m reading these words but the moment I leave I’m alone to fend for myself and I’ll get it all wrong. I’ll forget like I always do: The things that matter Forget about you. It wouldn’t be the first time.

The -1: Jonny: Resurrect my body for all of the things I once affected. Ben: The tides have turned like the seasons and the tables. Time changes us all. Unstable. I’m only able to do what I said I wouldn’t as long as its out of sight. I’m weaker than you know. Will it come to the light that I’m doing what I want but what I want might hurt my brother. Punch a hole in the wall cause we’re hurting each other. Snapped a picture. Who knew it would become my home. Homie leave me alone. Homie leave me alone. Jonny: Smile for the camera and all of the things that I created. Ben: I’ve never felt this way before. You’re helping me grow. You were standing on the shore of everything that I know. You put a smile on my face and I thank you for that. Circular motion I fell into your trap! This thought’s (thot’s) my friend. This thought’s (thot’s) my enemy. The page is blank. My mind is empty. Forget what matters. Lose touch with reality. We were vibing out but peace is my energy… and you destroyed that. Looking back, remember all the things that you taught me. Hands stretched out, I changed a lot. I planted a new tree. Same face but a different mind. The past is unshakable. Spare me from the memories, a clean slate and a fresh start. Begin again. Just let me in, I’m not that unchangeable. I always say “I’ll never live again.” This time I’ll do my part. I opened up my heart and told you “I’m a new creation.” Suspended animation faces always changing… I’m self deprecating. Thanks for pointing that out. People tell me that I’m not OK. Negativity is my best friend so I don’t really need to remind myself. When I was caught in the middle of what I didn’t understand she told me everything would be OK. She said I was better than that and I guess I kind of believed her so I didn’t need to remind myself. Cause these images, images of what I could have been, what I should have done, songs I’ve never sung. Memories, Memories of things I said and all that I regret. So much regret. Falling Falling down the same pit I’ve been living in for half my life. I’m a bit uneasy. Failing. Failing at the things I thought that I was best at. Nothing’s worse than that. These images, images, pictures in my mind that keep me stuck in a pattern. I can’t break the cycle. Break the cycle. Images. Images that follow me back home. They are my home. Take me home. Now I’m lonely. Cause I’ve convinced myself I’m not worth saving. Cause no ones there for me. This memory. Memories they hold me back. Stunted, blind. I’m so self obsessed. Why am I so self obsessed? I hate myself! And what I have left. What do I have left?

Tiyan Tao: Perhaps to you it didn’t mean quite as much

A Message: Hello this is Ben… Hello? Hello this is Ben… Who is this? Hello? Hello? K bye.

Hit Send: Jonny: I’ve been waiting for the day when I’ll ask and be answered cause I’ve never heard a good one. Why is this song backwards? Yeah there I go again asking myself a question I can’t explain like a crashing plane. Such a disaster. Plaster the walls with the things that you’re missing like the point. All my joints have cracked just like my back. Cause I’ve been picking it up and bringing it around in a backpack. Blackjack minds like mine don’t get a damn thing done. Productivity. Maybe missing the point was the first step to success. Ignorance is this: when you miss what’s right in front of your face. Can’t reach the bar? Maybe that’s because you’ve been putting the bar in the wrong place. Sometimes I fear that I’ll hit the grave alone or that God on his throne can’t know the unknown. But honestly how could I know that God doesn’t know something? how could I know there’s anything to be unknown? Cause maybe God could make the unknown shown to himself like a beggar or a blind man. Now I’m getting ahead of myself like I thought I might. I’m still missing the point like a washed out human Still searching for it but never making progress. Still working for it but never seeing all this. Still asking how do I even know which point to miss? Now this is another question and I don’t have an answer for it. Maybe missing the point wasn’t the point at all. Maybe the point is the pride you grab before a fall. Maybe I got your head to bounce off the wall. Maybe the truth will be the end of it all. Ben: I’m so afraid of things being different then they were yesterday, so afraid of telling you “I don’t feel the same way today.” Sometimes I think that maybe my life will never be the way it was. Sometimes I think the best we had is now all said and done. Like nothing way off in the future will ever compare to what now is our past. Cause it’s over now. Its behind us and I see what a mistake to think it would last. People they change and I’m talking to Satan. I’m begging he leaves me alone, asking you “why can’t you love me enough to make my home your home?” Because my hearts the same. You owned my shame. You told me I was different. And when I broke down you held my hand. You told me to get through it. I was losing it. We were losing it. Confusing it. Diffusing it. So please let me know if I’m hating myself too much or just enough. You’re holding my hand but it’s too late. I’m already way too far gone. A smile, a laugh, its not enough. At least it never was for me. A friend is all I needed and a friend is all you gave me. It helped a bit but still I hated it. Why can’t you save me? Hate for myself enslaves me. You drove away. I’m waving. One more chance. I’m begging for a love that never lived, a heart that was all yours and a pain that was all mine: a pain I felt was so divine, a pain you took away, a pain that was literally everything to me, everything I ever needed, everything I ever wanted, ever hated. I always waited, my feelings naked. Tonight I’m wasted. Tonight I tasted a little piece of what could have been forever but really it don’t matter. I hope this made me better and next time I don’t mess it up quite this much. This sadness is enough for the both of us so I’m sorry if I left any of it behind with you. Jonny: These thoughts(thots) are not my enemies. These thoughts(thots) are not my friends. These thoughts(thots) are the things I’m forced to deal with. When I’m alone its just me and them.

Floating Stage: I just wish you could see but you can’t

Delete Us: Ben: Communications failing me. I can’t find the words to say. I try my best to let it go and take it all away but I can’t get past the differences. Maybe that’s my problem. my problems, your problems, our solution is failing us. Because it doesn’t really exist. I listen and I listen. We used to be more. We were better than this. There’s no empathy when you look at me. All you feel is sympathy. Togetherness run away with me. Dreams that were our destiny. It’s our time to speak. our time is now. Things are different now but I don’t know how. We hated each other so we made a record. Be more than this. Be more than brothers. Timing is everything and so are you so lets figure this out, let me through. let me tell you who I really am. I’m a different man. We were different then. We were sleeping but then we woke up sleeping but then we woke up Looking for what, we didn’t know what. Looking for what, we’re getting choked up. Thinking but we never speak up. Why can’t we ever just speak up? Hating each other but we don’t know for what. Look at my eyes just look up. Love has found me from the start, devotion was a gift. The waters which surround my heart have set my soul adrift. Devotion is a faith my love, a strong and precious thing. The ocean is awake my love. You cause my world to sing. Thoughts are not the enemy. Thoughts are not my friend. Thoughts are the things I’m forced to deal with. When I’m alone its just me and them. Anxious, I’m often clumsy, I wobble and I shake. I hope some people can relate to this, these songs we try to make but if they don’t I guess its just for us. And that’s okay. Because us is all I’ve ever known. It’s us I want to stay. One thing was always certain: I never questioned what I felt. But even that, that idea, that indication I always knew has now left me. Left me questioning uncertainty. Uneasiness. I’m empty of answers and solutions to your questions and desires. You never wanted what I wanted but I waited and I waited and then finally you came to me and I didn’t have an answer. I didn’t know who I was. Why couldn’t you just tell me? A moment too late, it’s never too soon. It’s never the right timing. You raised your voice, I lowered my head. You asked me why can’t you look at me? I had nothing to say because I’d already done enough. I just can’t see all that you see. A separate point of view, too many lies, I’m more than just confused. And I feel stupid because my problem is I tell myself I’m being used. It doesn’t seem like I have a right to feel the way that I am feeling. And so I hold it back but it keeps me grounded, reminds me of what I have. I never wanted things to look this way or people to get angry. Please believe me when I say this was all one big misunderstanding with me with this with us with them with you I’m different When will it ever end? It never ends. within me, without it. withered. Please witness this change this journey. Together beginning, no beginning. I wonder if I had done a little better or tried a little harder would we still be in this place? Would I still feel out of place or would I actually belong somewhere? Inside my home I’m the only one who feels a bit alone. We’re not unified. Or are we? I just can’t see all that you see. I can’t see what’s happening. Tell me how you feel. How do you feel? What you feel could make all the difference. So just tell me: what’s happening to us? Is it the differences inside us? what’s happening? I swear this will be the death of it, the death of us, the death of me, the death of everything just because I didn’t know what to say. I can’t lose you. I’m so afraid of losing you. Don’t let me go. don’t lose me too. don’t lose me too. I care for you. don’t lose me. Don’t let me go. Don’t let me go. No one’s listening. Complacency and weakness. I never wanted a heart of weakness but these images deceive me. Why are we even doing this? Is it because it’s what our hearts long for, a dream that we would die for? I’m here for now. I’m still here waiting.

The Lizard Queen: gniK draziL You said I was like your little brother. I liked the way the glasses fit your face. I was standing outside. Maybe this is the way you put me in my place. You don’t look the same anymore. Spending time with someone else. I just wanted you to take my hand. Lets go to that ship that people always talk about, scratch our names in the sand. All of the aliens, MISS U. Who would have thought this would be our last day. You taught me how to love your kind. Yeah the finger is still pointing away. Tell me right now: what did she say? You left and never came back to us. Come back to us. I sent the llama away. Protect us right now protect us. Come back for what’s yours. I never gave you what was always yours. It was always yours. You said I was like your little brother. I liked the way you put me in my place. Do you know my name anymore? I thought that this would never end. Just one more time lets all go to that attic people always talk about, write our name on the wall. Extraterrestrials, DONTLEAVE. Perhaps to you it didn’t mean quite as much. Minneapolis on your chest. Che che che che che che che che che che che che che che che. Perhaps to you it didn’t mean quite as much.

I Think You’re Different Now Ben: What’s happening to us? Are the differences inside us the things that make us excellent? Yeah while we’re taking in the elements, breathe in then breathe out. Look around, cause it’s life without borders. No barriers holding us back. And though the pain may overtake us, it’s the promises that keep us alive. Yeah we’re thriving. No hiding from our enemies. The people who may look a little stronger than us and could break our backs in two, it doesn’t matter. Cause you gotta look them in the eye, take your fist and punch them as hard as you can in the face. And now that you’ve put them in their place and they’ve fallen on the floor reach down, give them your hand, help them up. Brush the dust from their shirt. Brush the dust off their face and say: we’re all equal. Yeah we’re all equal. we’re all the same. A little different maybe. But we’re playing the same game. So take my hand and run with me cause we’re all small animals who want to break free but look… we’re already free. We just have to let go of what we love and trust in what we know. This is the only way to live and there are countless ways to die. So do your best to make a difference and forget the rest. Yeah we’re all equal. we’re all the same. A little different maybe. But we’re playing the same game. So take my hand and run with me cause we’re all small animals who want to break free but wait… I’m afraid to run towards what I cannot see. Cause I’ve never seen something quite like this. I’m trying to believe I can let go of my fist. I’m ready now. We’re ready. I’m ready now. I’m ready. Yeah we’re all equal. we’re all the same. A little different maybe. But we’re playing the same game. So take my hand and run with me cause we’re all small animals who want to break free but wait… I’m afraid to run towards what we cannot see. Cause we’ve never seen something quite like this. We’re starting to believe I can let go of my fist. We’re ready now. We’re ready. I’m ready now. We’re ready. Fin