Delete Us:
Ben: Communications failing me. I can’t find the words to say. I try my best to let it go and take it all away
but I can’t get past the differences. Maybe that’s my problem.
my problems,
your problems, our solution is failing us.
Because it doesn’t really exist. I listen and I listen.
We used to be more.
We were better than this. There’s no empathy when you look at me. All you feel is sympathy. Togetherness run away with me. Dreams that were our destiny.
It’s our time to speak.
our time is now.
Things are different now but I don’t know how. We hated each other so we made a record. Be more than this.
Be more than brothers.
Timing is everything and so are you so lets figure this out, let me through.
let me tell you who I really am. I’m a different man.
We were different then.
We were sleeping but then we woke up sleeping but then we woke up
Looking for what, we didn’t know what.
Looking for what, we’re getting choked up. Thinking but we never speak up. Why can’t we ever just speak up?
Hating each other but we don’t know for what. Look at my eyes just look up.

Love has found me from the start,
devotion was a gift.
The waters which surround my heart have set my soul adrift.
Devotion is a faith my love, a strong and precious thing.
The ocean is awake my love. You cause my world to sing.
Thoughts are not the enemy.
Thoughts are not my friend.
Thoughts are the things I’m forced to deal with.
When I’m alone its just me and them.
Anxious, I’m often clumsy, I wobble and I shake.
I hope some people can relate to this, these songs we try to make but if they don’t I guess its just for us. And that’s okay. Because us is all I’ve ever known. It’s us I want to stay.

One thing was always certain: I never questioned what I felt. But even that, that idea, that indication I always knew has now left me. Left me questioning uncertainty. Uneasiness.
I’m empty of answers and solutions to your questions and desires.
You never wanted what I wanted but I waited and I waited and then finally you came to me and I didn’t have an answer.
I didn’t know who I was. Why couldn’t you just tell me? A moment too late, it’s never too soon. It’s never the right timing. You raised your voice, I lowered my head. You asked me why can’t you look at me?

I had nothing to say because I’d already done enough.
I just can’t see all that you see.
A separate point of view, too many lies, I’m more than just confused. And I feel stupid because my problem is
I tell myself I’m being used. It doesn’t seem like I have a right to feel the way that I am feeling.
And so I hold it back but it keeps me grounded, reminds me of what I have.
I never wanted things to look this way or people to get angry.
Please believe me when I say this was all one big misunderstanding
with me
with this
with us
with them
with you I’m different
When will it ever end? It never ends. within me,
without it.
withered. Please witness this change this journey.
Together beginning,
no beginning.
I wonder if I had done a little better or tried a little harder would we still be in this place?
Would I still feel out of place or would I actually belong somewhere?
Inside my home I’m the only one who feels a bit alone. We’re not unified. Or are we?
I just can’t see all that you see. I can’t see what’s happening. Tell me how you feel. How do you feel?
What you feel could make all the difference. So just tell me:
what’s happening to us?
Is it the differences inside us? what’s happening?
I swear this will be the death of it,
the death of us,
the death of me,
the death of everything just because I didn’t know what to say.
I can’t lose you. I’m so afraid of losing you. Don’t let me go. don’t lose me too.
don’t lose me too. I care for you.
don’t lose me.
Don’t let me go.
Don’t let me go.
No one’s listening.

Complacency and weakness. I never wanted a heart of weakness but these images deceive me.
Why are we even doing this? Is it because it’s what our hearts long for, a dream that we would die for?
I’m here for now.
I’m still here waiting.